I have been out of the church for some time now. I never had the guts to ask a girl out, so I started to hang out in theaters and adult book stores. A few times I went to a guyís house for sex. It was fun, but the odd thing is that I felt the call of God to be a minister. I know how judgmental people in the church are. Plus, itís in the Bible that a man should not lay with another man. So, Iím still into the gay sex and porn things, figuring that if it feels good, do it. If others can do it, why shouldnít I? I like the secretive part of it. I donít care if anyone knows. I just donít want it out in the open as it would take the fun out of it.