Desperate

My fiancée and I had been dating for almost four years. My fiancée was everything to me. She was the reason why I joined the United States Marine Corps. I had done everything to keep her happy to stay with her. Kara was perfect. She was everything a man would want with a female in a relationship, and I lost it because I am money hungry. A long time ago I had a "meeting" with another man. It was, or at least I thought it was, a one time thing. For Kara, I got into massage therapy and got licensed. I ended up making it a business. In doing the business, I got proposed by a male to do a little bit more than just massage. One thing let to another and I became a male escort. I told Kara all about my problem but not before I did it, but afterwards. I haven't had any sexual relations with any of the persons that I met. I am not doing that sort of lifestyle anymore. I quit cold turkey for her in order to save us. But, it was too little too late. I don't know how to get over this. I regret what I have done, and am desperate to date her again, or at least to talk to her again.

— Roger, 24