Don't Want to be a Player Anymore

I found the perfect women for me, but she doesn't believe me when I tell her she's the one. In her eyes I'm just a player. I know most women hate players and don't want to be played. I hate the players as much as women do just because of the fact that the good, honest, sincere ones get labeled as such. At the same time, I want to have sex now, even though in the back of my mind I know that it's not right. It could potentially screw the whole thing up. She expressed herself clearly and said that she's not looking for a friend with benefits as I am. But the overwhelming desire and sexiness of her shear warmth and understanding just screams for me. How have I coped with the whole thing, you ask? Well, let's just say I have taken plenty of long showers.

— Brian, 19