Not Gay ... I Think

I have been married for thirty-three years, but I sneak out occasionally for a little video booth sex. I recently did something I have wondered about for a long time. I have had oral sex in video booths many times, but I have given it as I couldn't get up the nerve. Well, last week I finally did it. I don't know if he liked it or not; he had a big smile, but I don't think he completed. I'm not sure if I am gay or just like the concept. I wish I had the answer. I want to find out if I'm gay or just straight and messed up.

— Luke, 58