Feeling Guilty About Amazing Sex

A couple of the guys on this street work at home. There's a web designer, a guitar repair guy, and a freelance photographer. My next door neighbors moved in about a year ago. The guy is a pro tennis player. He is very athletic and very friendly. I've always wondered what it would be like with another guy. While I've had my kinky online fetish encounters, mostly "presenting" as a horny she-male in online chat rooms, nothing has crossed this virtual/real world boundary, until two weeks ago. I had to borrow something from Dave. I went to his door, and he answered wearing just a loose pair of boxer shorts. He had an obvious erection and, although I wanted to pretend I hadn't noticed, he smiled, came closer, and said, "You like what you see, don't you?" Within a few moments I was, for the first time in my life, giving oral to a guy and loving it. At one point, he smiled and commented what a perfect, submissive "girl" I was and then had sex with me. I had the best orgasm of my life! Since then, we've had sex maybe a half dozen times, and I've started finding myself checking out guys in a way I usually check out sexy women. On the one hand, I feel guilty. On the other, it's just amazing sex.

— Carl, 43