Ingrained Hormonal Feelings

I'm a heterosexual male who has, since being a boy, gained great pleasure from wearing girls' panties, specifically silk ones, stockings and suspenders. My wife has accepted me wearing her panties and even seems to get a degree of pleasure from me wearing them after she has, but she draws the line at the stockings. I don't really understand why, even though she explains it's too feminine. Surely, a guy who can express his feminine side openly in a relationship is better than one who hides the fact and keeps it as a frustrated secret. Her reaction makes me sad and embarrassed, but I can't stop a hormonal feeling that's so ingrained.

— Xavier, 38