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I remember when I told you I would be happy forever, I promised this to you.

Me, my thoughts, my hopes, and dreams, are twirling and falling deep into my soul... the only thing I can trust, myself. I am lost dazed and confused. You don't seem to care. you don't even seem aware that I have been digging my grave for the past year, I just wanted you to notice that I was here... that I am your daughter, but you, yourself are being swallowed by fear, selfishness, and lost hope. I am here, I exist I thought you would want to know.
Here I am alone and put out for bait. I am waiting for you to save me, where are you? You are so distant, lost in your world. Yes your world, where Allison does not exist. I forgot about the broken promises you made, not to move away. I forgot about the heart of mine, that you broke, and yet I still don't exist.
Will I ever be good enough for you? I understand that I do not make right choices, but if anyone should understand... it's you dad. Do you remember.... because I will never forget .I am scared to look your way, I do not want you to see my faults. I do not want you to see the tears dwelling in my eyes. I don't want you to see that you failed as a father.
I will just continue to smile, though it hurts, I will continue to be "happy." just like I promised, because unlike some people... I keep my promises. Remember daddy... I am happy.