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My heart is like a tortured soul,
i live each day like its a life time goal.

i'm full of so much pain,
i feel i have nothing to gain.

i have opened my heart once before,
now i know there's nothing more.

locked up in a padded room,
to look on at nothing but gloom.

love has turned my heart black as night,
knowing that in life nothing is right.

looking into my eyes now bloody red,
if you look hard enough you may think me dead.

nothing but pain dwells within,
but you wouldn't notice because of my grin.

some times i wish i were dead,
but i go on living instead.

i hide myself only to save,
those i wish not in a grave.

some may try to lighten my padded living space,
but in all the wrong ways like gods grace.

i hate god and all he stands for,
he's a myth, a lie, and nothing more.

I wrote this poem inspite of you,
but when i started it just grew and grew.

i shared more then i would have liked to,
but after all it is all about you.

i wanted you to know how much pain i have inside,
so please don't think you can come and be my guide.

I have no more love to give,
and i'm damned for eternity only to live.

you made me into what i am today,
and you better listen to what i have to say.

because what i have to say is very real,
for my heart is no longer your's to steal.

so go away and never come back,
for pain is something in which you lack.