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sometimes i wonder if you ever think of me?
at thats exact minute; hour of any day
is my name a spoken word from your mouth?
do people even know i exist?

do you hate me because i am your first born or do you hate me because of my arms being scorned?

sometimes i wonder if only you could pretend you loved me, just a little bit, not a lot then i think could it be true that you can live without a heart

do you hate me becuse i left or do you hate me because the secrets i no longer kept

sometimes i put my mind into rewind , memories of a beeter day, then i start to invision your face and tha one glowing moment instantly fades away

do you hate me because i dont belong or do you hate me because i have done something wrong

sometimes i become very sad inside, the tears in the shower because i try to hide the thoughts and emotions running through my mind

do you hate me because of my big brown curls or
didyou hate me the moment i entered this world

sometimes i wonder why you chose to be a mother for you are the reason i am alive and you are the reason i have died inside a child is a joy and you dealt with me as if i were a toy used and abused and eventually thrown away when you have finally proclaimed no longer you want to play

do you hate me because of the color of my eyes or do you hate me because when you look at my face my father you find?

sometimes i wonder why i am so defensive why you called me all those names and put me down making me feel always as the servent and never the princess

do you hate me because i have no home or do you hate me beacuse i stand alone

sometimes i wonder why the drink you chose over me is it my fault are eyes have never seen i am the reason why your so brutally mean

do you hate me because it rains do you hate me because into the night the sun fades

sometimes i wonder why i am clenching on so tightly never wanting to let you go but eventually i begin to loose my grip and realize there is nothing left to hold on to

do you hate me becausei cry
do you hate me because i keep inside
do you hate me because i dream
do you hate me because i believe

sometimes i wonder if you realize the damage you have done
the pain you have caused no apology no remidy there is no cure
i ask myself how could i have ever loved you and it always remains unanswered

do i hate you because you hate me or do i hate you because a mother i know you could never be