Search

I met this man 3 years past,
He broke down my walls, took away my mask,
He stole my heart and took a part of my soul,
He took it away but still he made me whole.
I flew up high on wings unfurled
The joy, the love, the full extent is untold.

I loved completly and I loved blind
I loved so much but he was never to be mine
Her darkened wings swooped into my world
They took him up, not a sound could be heard
I blamed her much and I blamed her for long
that I never thought it was all his doing

For years he loved her as a soul mate
He gave her things to me he never did
And then one day she left him alone
She flew away, deaf to his loud moan
She loved him not but for only a time
She loved him as he loved me, as a passing mime

He came back into my world one fine day,
Slithered in softly as was his way,
My past persistence was all for naught
Till that day and I thought that he was caught
He nibbled my line as he knew that was all it took
To reel me in , somehow it was I that ended up on the hook

I believed it all but with a cautioning eye
My brain warned my heart "be weary my child"
I wanted to believe but then I wanted not
My brain and heart in battle was locked
But I risked it once more and put my heart on the line
I let it go, if only for this one last time

Whisper, whisper, talk back and forth
I finally found out what he thought I was worth
To him I was nothing for he deceived me still
He had another and I was left out of the deal
His love for the new one he claimed was nothing at all
Still to be mine but still he left her not

3 years I waited, 3 years I gave away
My choice was my 3 years, of how it should be wasted
My investment bottomed out and I am flat broke
My stock market heart crashed like a bad joke
My pain no longer haunts me so
My bitterness though, begins to grow


I no longer look for love and romance
I look only to steal hearts and chance
Making love is no longer permitted
From time to time I indulge in pure sex adulterated
No I love you's and cuddly coo's
Just do me now and leave when we are through

The thought of his deceit brings bile to my throat
And the thought alone that he would try to talk around it
I fell for his lines and I fell hard
I believe every tainted word that seeped from his black heart
He took my heart, he took my soul
I let him walk all over me and turn me into soft mold

I feel stupid for falling for his sweetened tongue
I have been played quite well, like a fiddle and a good song
And every time it passes my mind
I feel like a blackness creep up my spine
No more will I know how to feel love
Only blackness surround, no white feathered dove.

I made "me" this way and you I do not blame
I was stupid to believe your game
Your deceit, was only swallowed by me
Your lies of caring was a good song to sing
And now I walk away for the last
To remain bitter for life from you as my past.