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As days go by I keep thinking things will be easier and I will be able to get you out of my mind and heart. By the end of each day I realize that I can’t do that and can’t help thinking of you once again. The way you used to hold me tight and make me feel like everything would be alright, the touch of your lips next to mine made me get this tingly feeling all inside. I gave myself to you, body, heart, and soul but you paid me back with something I could have never imagined in my whole life. The pain you caused me I do not wish it upon anyone else because it felt like someone ripping me apart little piece by piece. Like someone stabbing me over and over again. You stepped all over my heart and I don’t think I will ever be the same again. It’s been over a year now since we broke up, but it feels like it was just yesterday. Why did you do it? I will never understand. I would have forgiven you if it would have been anybody else, but she was family. You told me I love you countless of times, but were was all that love at that time. Many nights we talked about getting married and having a family that is all in the past now. It hurts to think of how happy we could have been, but that is just a dream now, actually its way farther then a dream because it is impossible. Threw out our relationship we had our up and downs but I loved you no matter what. I can’t help feeling so much love for you and that is what confuses me the most. I should not love you I should hate you for what you have done, but the sad thing is I can’t. And when I start thinking how it is all you fault I can’t helping feeling like it was all me. Many people keep telling me to get over you, that you do not deserve my love, but it is hard to take back something that you gave unselfishly and truly for the very first time.