Not Your Face
by Shelly Zerbee
I saw your face last night, in the back of my eyes
I felt you near me for quite sometime
I touched your cheek, your neck, your face
A very strong feeling took place
You kissed me and I yearned it
You loved me and I endured it
My eyes open, your no where in sight
I dreamed of you last night
I dreamed of a time that never existed
You once had my love and you dismissed it
I woke up feeling dirty, wrong with what I saw
I realized my hearts not healed after all
Love? For you I feel a gram
After all you made me who I am
Insecure and timid, afraid to speak my very own mind
I was convinced it would get better with time
I see now that it wont, youve corrupted my thoughts
Made all future fullfillment a loss.
I realized there will never be enough space
I'll never be ready to see your face
Not in my dreams not with my eyes
Not the face of my demise
Ive moved on from you, though Im not over you
I dont think anyone could forget what you put me through
Its in my thoughts its in my actions
It crosses every single reaction
Im not the same and never will be
You killed me.