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A Lonely Road

by
Laura Reilly

I watch as I drown in a river of my own creation...
But the summer is here
A violent river will become hard, shrunken, sun baked earth.
Brittle.
Snaking through my mind... through my heart
Where impenetrable, see-through walls erect themselves with lightning speed.
Where I am on display, stripped bare
And no one can reach me, or touch me... or save me
From the black hole that will neither suck me in nor spit me out
Into a place where all you have are 'what was' and the knowledge
That all the 'yet to comes' will never come
Where 'numb' is bliss
And ignorance is a wish that was overlooked
By the stars that mock you in you naivet',
Before hope becomes a distant memory.
Where injustice is out seducing the jury
As reality sits on the fence between believing in itself
And believing in nothing at all.
Where darkness greedily devours al feeling,
Where dreams are best forgotten before they're dreamt
Because this is the place where dreams die
Where love is a curse that's already been broken, yet insists upon remaining
A place where forgetting is impossible
Where bitterness is the thief that stole my spirit
And the soul is 21 grams of nothingness
A place where I can only turn my head and close my eyes as I try to fend off
The memories I never made....

....A place somewhere.....

On the inside of me.


For all those that have loved
And all those that have lost