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I never imagined I could feel this pain,
As I sit here the tears pour down like rain.
I'll never forget all the memories we had,
And I'll remember the good times with the bad.
I wish with all my heart things would've been all right,
I feel like I gave up without putting up a fight.
I understand everything yet nothing is clear,
There is so much inside me that I still fear.
I must conceal the pain so I won't hurt you,
Because that is the last thing I ever want to do.
So I have to pretend that things are fine,
But everything involved has crossed the line.
I can act like this is how I want things to be,
But inside this is murdering me.
There are so many things that I should have done,
But with us this game could never be won.
This ache in my chest is ripping and strong,
Why did everything turn out so wrong?
I wish I could just say, "Well it's been fun,"
But I've never felt like this about anyone.
The things we said replay in my mind,
But that one special word I can't seem to find.
What do I feel when I think about you?
That is one thing I wish I knew.
I honestly can't say what I wanted us to be,
I only know my heart has blinded me.
Nothing any more makes any sense,
My emotions have locked me inside this fence.
I've never been confused and hurt this way,
And I've given up on when and what to say.
There are so many things that I can't tell you,
Yet so many things that I really need to.
I can actually see from your point of view,
But that doesn't help with the things I must do.
So many words cut like a knife,
Yet I still want to hold you for the rest of my life.
My heart is playing a sad country song,
I just pray that this torture won't last very long.
You told me things no one has ever said,
I wish my heart didn't feel so dead.
I'll never feel more than I felt with that kiss,
But there is no use trying to continue this.
You've made up your mind and I have to live with that,
But my heart is still open like a welcome mat.
I felt the footprints you left on my heart,
And I understand there will never be another start.
You won't ever love me and this I know,
But I don't think I can ever let go.