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I know you're wondering what my love for you means.
I know you don't know what to make of the different moods; happy to sad to angry.
I know it's hard for you to understand the complexity of my mind.
But if you could stop listening and hear my heart.
If I could I would let you hear the memories of my past.
The tragedy of my present.
The anxiety of my future.
But how to do that I don't know.
I wish I were enough for you.
Enough cleverness.
Enough intelligence.
Enough charm.
Enough elegance.
Enough patience.
Enough security.
Enough beauty.
Enough passion.
Enough love.

But I believe that because I have to try so much harder...it must be because I am not
Clever enough.
Intelligent enough.
Charming enough.
Elegant enough.
Patient enough.
Secure enough.
Beautiful enough.
Passionate enough.
Loving enough.

Because if I was then I am sure you would hear me...or at least listen.
I know that you love my eyes...
and that is because you avoid seeing the rest.
And I know that you don't want to see what's behind my eyes...
my tortured mind.
To love you enough,
The way that I wish I could.
Have prayed I would.
The problem is not you
The problem is me.
And I think the solution for me to love you...
enough
is to let you know that I'll love you for an eternity
long after the sun has lost it's shine.
But out of love I set you free.
I'm not who you thought I'd be.
Please don't be satisfied with what you want to see.
Remember what you love about me in memory.
It'll take some time...so take it slow
if you should miss me...you'll find me in the love songs on the radio.

I love you Peter. I always will.