Time Will Tell

Okay, here it goes. I have been married for ten years. I married my high school sweetheart and never, ever dreamed of having anyone else. About two or three years ago, I met someone younger than me. I was good friends with his mother, and we lived very close. I was immediately attracted to him but just shrugged it off because he was my friend's son and the huge fact that I didn't believe in cheating. Well, within the last two years, we weren't close. My friendship with his mother ended badly, and I wasn't sure he wanted to speak to me because of it all. But I wouldn't admit to myself that he and I shared a connection I can't explain. I often wondered how he was doing and if I ever crossed his mind at all. Well, suddenly and unexpectedly, he got in touch with me online, and when he came back home, I knew things were going to happen. I just couldn't stop myself, and I don't regret it. He and I shared a lot of fun times. We are so much alike. My hubby was very neglectful and didn't appreciate me. So, this younger man was a breath of fresh air. We shared one inevitable and special night together, and I think about it all the time. I ended things without even giving him a reason. I told my hubby because the guilt was terrible. I was scared to death because I felt way too much for him, and I do love my hubby. I haven't talked to him since the hurtful ending. I know he feels deeply for me, and I will always care deeply for him, too. Sometimes when you love something you have to set it free. He needs to be young and have fun and not fall for someone like me. Hopefully, one day we will run into each other, and I just might be able to tell him why I did what I did. Maybe then he can tell me just what I meant to him. I guess we'll see.

— Ellie, 29

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