What and Who Do I Want?

My boyfriend of four years and I just broke up about three months ago. We both turned twenty-one and started going out a lot more. One night, I unintentionally met someone who just swept me off my feet. He made me realize how a woman should really be treated. A few weeks later, I broke up with my ex. It was a pretty bad breakup. We didn't talk for about a month. Then we started talking again, and one thing led to another until we fooled around again behind my new man's back. I broke up with my new man because I was really confused and didn't know what I wanted. So, my ex and I were off and on for about a month until I came to the realization that he hadn't changed and probably wouldn't. I was still being treated horribly, just like before. We mutually ended things between us and decided to just be friends. Now he is dating someone, and I am back with the man that swept me off my feet. I really care about him, and he treats me so much better than my ex ever did. However, I still think about my ex. I don't know if I am still in the recovery stage or what, but I think about my ex a lot and wonder what and who I really want.

— Angelina, 21

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