Wouldn't Take It Back

I met this guy at work this past spring and was instantly attracted to him, which is unusual for me. I don't know what it was, but I got wet just seeing him. I'm sure he had the same feelings for me because he started coming on to me almost right away. Now, I am a social worker in a nursing home. It is one of my job responsibilities to monitor other employees' conduct and to report any unprofessional behavior that I encounter. So, I have to be a model of what's right/wrong myself. The potential consequences of getting caught messing around with one of the male nurses while we are both on duty weighed very heavily on my mind. So, initially, I was able to control my feelings and I declined many of his advances. However, one day I was in my office getting ready to go home and he came in. He entered and then abruptly closed the door behind him. He started saying that he was hoping I'd spend a little time with him before I left. Then he forced me into his arms and started kissing me passionately. Before I had the time to say anything, we were having sex with each other on my desk. It felt so great to finally have him. Unfortunately, I felt bad almost immediately after our little fling. Plus, now I think everyone knows about it and that they are talking. I feel like it is only a matter of time before my boss finds out and I get fired. What's worse is I found out that he is married with kids, and now I feel really guilty. It's sad to say, but I wouldn't take it back for the world.

— Sandra, 25

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