I Finally Understand

Throughout our twenty year marriage, my husband Bill would sometimes mention (usually when we were having sex) that he wouldn't mind if I wanted to occasionally date other men. I never took him seriously and actually thought it was a bit perverse for him to even bring up. That changed when I was checking up on his internet usage and discovered he loved to read these confessions. He seemed to enjoy the ones that mentioned husbands letting their wives be with other men. I had no idea that so many husbands would find having their wives date such a turn on. I admit I found myself somewhat excited after reading a few of the confessions and I began to fantasize about myself on a date with a new man. The next time Bill brought the subject up during our lovemaking; I told him I might be willing to give it a try if he really wanted me to. We were so excited by even talking about it that we had the best sex we had in years! The very next day, I took off my wedding ring and I began to dress and act a bit more provocatively. I don't know if it was just my attitude or the excitement of trying something new, but I felt so much younger and sexier than I had in a long, long time. I was amazed at how often I was being hit on, but I felt like I wanted to wait for something special. It was about two weeks after Bill and I had talked when, while waiting on line at the bank, a very handsome, well dressed young man began a conversation with me. I admit I was smitten by his good looks and found myself saying yes to his invitation for coffee. Nathan and I had a great conversation over coffee and I agreed to dinner with him on Friday night. When I told Bill about meeting Nathan and our date on Friday, he practically attacked me. I had never seen my husband so excited. The whole time we made love, I found myself thinking about Nathan. I don't know who was more anxious on Friday, Bill or myself. I can't even describe the feeling of having your husband watching you get ready for a date with another man. I felt so desirable. Right before Nathan picked me up, Bill and I engaged in a deep passionate kiss and he told me how much he loved me. A few moments later, I was sliding into the passenger seat of my date's car and I find myself in another deep kiss. Wow! Dinner couldn't have ended soon enough. Nathan and I couldn't keep our hands off each other and we ended up at Nathan's house. I more than willingly allowed him to have me in every way. He was much younger than Bill, as well as a far more skilled and patient lover. I had never felt so free to please a man. Nathan finally took me home a little after one in the morning. Bill was still up and wanting to hear all the details. He got so worked up when I told him Nathan was fondling me in the restaurant that he took me right there on the dining room table. All weekend long, I let out bits and pieces of my date with Nathan. I would tell my husband what a great lover Nathan was and how he made love to me all over his house. Bill would be overcome with lust and just take me on the floor. I had never dreamed so much sex was even possible after twenty years of marriage. Needless to say, I finally understand how sharing your wife can really improve your sex life.

— Andrea, 42

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