I've been married for ten years to my current husband. It's my second marriage. My first marriage was to the love of my life. We had a heated, passionate, relationship, but his drinking made him mean. So, we broke up our marriage, but we never stopped sleeping together. He is remarried and has a two-year-old son with his wife. My ex calls and sends text messages to me every day. I know I still love him. I told him I wanted him back. I told him that staying with her just because of the baby isn't right, and that his wife is just crazy. She threatens to leave him if he sees his children from our marriage. She doesn't want him to be anywhere near me. But little does she know that I have unbelievable sex with him every chance I get. My husband loves me and treats me way better than my ex ever did, but he can tell that my ex and I have a connection that he can't explain. He hates it when I take the kids to see their father because he doesn't pay child support and doesn't come to see his kids. I know my ex loves hi kids, but he has no way to support them because he has an injury. I just think he is a dead-beat dad. I have raised the kids, for the most part, with my husband, and the kids love him. My ex is funny, exciting, playful, and charming. My husband is dependable, hard-working, committed, and he loves me very much. But there just aren't sparks or real chemistry there with him. But, I choose stability over passion. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband, but it's a completely different kind of love. We are moving soon, far away from here, and I probably won't see my ex for a long time. I'm a little sad because I won't see him, but I think my husband is glad because he finally gets his girl.