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My ex, Toby, and I dated for two years. I really did love him, but there was something inside me that wanted more. I don't know why or what I wanted, but I cheated on him and was caught. I felt, and still do feel, really bad about it. So, he thought it was best that we break up. Although I didn't find what I was looking for in that other guy or the present guys I've dated after him, I compare all the guys I date to him. I still think of him and if we will ever end up together again. I think that even if I hadn't cheated, something else would have come between us. I see him sometimes, and he acts like he doesn't see me. He acts like he just doesn't care. I feel like it's all my fault. I hope and sometimes even think he does. It's just his foolish pride that holds him back. I hope one day he will wise up and come back to me. I really do think I'm ready to start over with him. I think I should get a second chance because I gave him a second chance. So, if he ever reads this, I want him to know that I still and always will love him, and I hope that he thinks of me because I think of him every day. -Beth, 22