I am twenty-nine, married, with two kids. My life is good; I have a good job, and a nice house. I don't want to lose any of it, but I have this urge that is growing and growing and I don't know what to do about it. The urge is to have full sex with another man. I don't think I'm gay and I've always liked sex with women and still do. But, I really want another guy who has a big package to use and abuse me. It's all I can think about. I recently heard that there is a truck stop about ten miles from my house and that this sort of fun can be found there easily. I want to go so badly. I'm thinking I might go tonight.