I don't know what it is, but for as long as I can remember I have been attracted to older women. My mother-in-law is no exception to the case. She is forty-seven and every time I see her, I get extremely aroused. There have been numerous times when she is working in the yard or just lounging around the house and not wearing a bra under her shirt. If she's wearing the right shirt and leans over, I can see her full breasts and everything. I don't know if she's doing this on purpose or not, but I would think she has to know. I mean, I would know if my stuff was hanging out being exposed! Anyway, I have a fantasy of her watching me or catching me pleasuring myself. The thought of exposing myself to her, and then her watching is a real turn on. I've thought about asking her if she would watch me sometime, but there's no easy way to come out and ask that sort of thing. I've caught her staring at my package a few times over the years also, but it could be something or it could be nothing. Anytime I'm around her, I fantasize about this, and it usually ends in me going home and fantasizing about it. Maybe one day I will work up the nerve and ask her, but for now I'll keep it as a fantasy.